Ups and downs of creativity.....

Honestly, every time it happens I am amazed at how quickly I feel defeated and hopeless.  The puppet, the picture, the clothing re-design...whatever the project is... is just perkin' along.  I feel excited and stimulated and on a high.... until whoosh.................something goes wrong.  The drawing seems pathetic, the puppet is not working, the clothing piece is lopsided and ungainly... and then I have to pull my self out of  "this will NEVER work"... to another possibility.   The one where I am confident it is a temporary set back, a new problem to solve, a different path to take.  So I Take a break.  Drink some water.  Eat some food. Go for a walk.   Or, as in this moment, come here and write in this blog.  Now for the food.  The beauty ~ the creation arises from the knot..... from the not.

Ups and downs of creativity.....

Honestly, every time it happens I am amazed at how quickly I feel defeated and hopeless.  The puppet, the picture, the clothing re-design...whatever the project is... is just perkin' along.  I feel excited and stimulated and on a high.... until whoosh.................something goes wrong.  The drawing seems pathetic, the puppet is not working, the clothing piece is lopsided and ungainly... and then I have to pull my self out of  "this will NEVER work"... to another possibility.   The one where I am confident it is a temporary set back, a new problem to solve, a different path to take.  So I Take a break.  Drink some water.  Eat some food. Go for a walk.   Or, as in this moment, come here and write in this blog.  Now for the food.  The beauty ~ the creation arises from the knot..... from the not.

Following the Blog!

I just figured out how to add the little box that allows you to "follow" the blog... meaning you will get en email when I post my brilliant insights and soon...very soon.... travel news. Please look to the right and lo! there is the little box.  I signed up... will see how it works as soon as I publish this newsworthy announcement.  I am working on a sweet little puppet to take to Europe.  More on him later.

Following the Blog!

I just figured out how to add the little box that allows you to "follow" the blog... meaning you will get en email when I post my brilliant insights and soon...very soon.... travel news. Please look to the right and lo! there is the little box.  I signed up... will see how it works as soon as I publish this newsworthy announcement.  I am working on a sweet little puppet to take to Europe.  More on him later.

The Full Monty

This is the rest of the picture from the previous entry that was a design for a poster for Touch of Chico. Probably a little too black  for a poster. Too much toner!

The Full Monty

This is the rest of the picture from the previous entry that was a design for a poster for Touch of Chico. Probably a little too black  for a poster. Too much toner!

"Crops": New view. Who knew.

Dale likes to take photos of my drawings and crop them to focus on parts. Pretty cool. I see them in a whole new way. Like someone else drew them.  I often think, "Wow.... that's really wonderful....... different... mysterious....what was she thinking?"

"Crops": New view. Who knew.

Dale likes to take photos of my drawings and crop them to focus on parts. Pretty cool. I see them in a whole new way. Like someone else drew them.  I often think, "Wow.... that's really wonderful....... different... mysterious....what was she thinking?"

Practicing Pasting Pictures: Past and Prophetic

This is a drawing, ink and pencil, that I did long ago.  It actually says 1996?... so there you have it. My normal precise grasp of time and place.  1996 or there abouts, my daughter was 11 and I was 37.  The two of us on the brink of so many changes, the drawing seems prophetic.

Practicing Pasting Pictures: Past and Prophetic

This is a drawing, ink and pencil, that I did long ago.  It actually says 1996?... so there you have it. My normal precise grasp of time and place.  1996 or there abouts, my daughter was 11 and I was 37.  The two of us on the brink of so many changes, the drawing seems prophetic.

Views,Cut and Paste

There have been 75 views of this blog.  Half of them are probably me trying to figure out how to do things and the rest are the 5 of you who have read the blog and are trying to figure out how to comment in order to keep me company..... and only Chris of Veggie Voyagers, an experienced blogger, seems to know how to comment in a way that I can see it.  I am trying to find out what's up... and will post as soon as I find out how it all works.

In the mean time I need to do a meditation so I am ready for my meditation session with Don tomorrow.  Now that would be a good thing to know how to do... (I'm not referring to meditation but yes.. that would be good too)...    I'm referring to finding out how to link a website from here.  Like for Complete Self Attunement. I can cut and past.

Speaking of cut and paste... I used to try to "help" the other kindergarteners who seemed to need a LOT of help with scissors and paste... except Mary and Amy. They probably already knew.  Of course, Amy DID eat paste........

Here's the cut and paste for today:

 http://www.csaprocess.com/  My list of Find This Out is long and rather endless.

So, in summary: I have been cutting and pasting for over 60 years. I will find out about comments soon and write how to do it!

Views,Cut and Paste

There have been 75 views of this blog.  Half of them are probably me trying to figure out how to do things and the rest are the 5 of you who have read the blog and are trying to figure out how to comment in order to keep me company..... and only Chris of Veggie Voyagers, an experienced blogger, seems to know how to comment in a way that I can see it.  I am trying to find out what's up... and will post as soon as I find out how it all works.

In the mean time I need to do a meditation so I am ready for my meditation session with Don tomorrow.  Now that would be a good thing to know how to do... (I'm not referring to meditation but yes.. that would be good too)...    I'm referring to finding out how to link a website from here.  Like for Complete Self Attunement. I can cut and past.

Speaking of cut and paste... I used to try to "help" the other kindergarteners who seemed to need a LOT of help with scissors and paste... except Mary and Amy. They probably already knew.  Of course, Amy DID eat paste........

Here's the cut and paste for today:

 http://www.csaprocess.com/  My list of Find This Out is long and rather endless.

So, in summary: I have been cutting and pasting for over 60 years. I will find out about comments soon and write how to do it!

Me at the pond.

My first attempt to post a picture. ...having my early big meal of the day reading Diana Gabaldon.

Me at the pond.

My first attempt to post a picture. ...having my early big meal of the day reading Diana Gabaldon.

New keyboard and the wonders of technology...when you know how to work it.

This is my first entry with the new fantaastic teeny tiny keyboard that weighs nothing and cost little, that turns my phone into a much more finger frinedly tool.  Awesome!

So now I can travel and blog. 

I am so grateful to be planning this trip.  I am learning so much.  Today about Bosnia from Chris and Dale... and facing my fears about visiting war torn places.  They both know how to focus on the healing that is taking place in the context of the larger and longer histories of the people and cultures.  I am blessed to have them both in my fairly uninfomed life.  They broaden me.

Puppets are working their way out of my hands and into the world....but then... not really either.   I am such a novice with the little things. We shall see if my learning curve and experimentations result in anything or should I say anyone who can travel to Europe.  Small and light, needless to say.  Europeans are the masters of the art and I am looking forward to the exposure.

I am going to get another blog going to share the work and play I did with my mother when she had her stroke.  I was going to write a book, but blogs are so much more expedient and accessiible and growth inducing with the immediacy of the writing and the comunication with any readers.

I don't pick up any spellcheck with this keyboard and app.  THAT could be a challenge.  I will try to fyx that ASAP!

New keyboard and the wonders of technology...when you know how to work it.

This is my first entry with the new fantaastic teeny tiny keyboard that weighs nothing and cost little, that turns my phone into a much more finger frinedly tool.  Awesome!

So now I can travel and blog. 

I am so grateful to be planning this trip.  I am learning so much.  Today about Bosnia from Chris and Dale... and facing my fears about visiting war torn places.  They both know how to focus on the healing that is taking place in the context of the larger and longer histories of the people and cultures.  I am blessed to have them both in my fairly uninfomed life.  They broaden me.

Puppets are working their way out of my hands and into the world....but then... not really either.   I am such a novice with the little things. We shall see if my learning curve and experimentations result in anything or should I say anyone who can travel to Europe.  Small and light, needless to say.  Europeans are the masters of the art and I am looking forward to the exposure.

I am going to get another blog going to share the work and play I did with my mother when she had her stroke.  I was going to write a book, but blogs are so much more expedient and accessiible and growth inducing with the immediacy of the writing and the comunication with any readers.

I don't pick up any spellcheck with this keyboard and app.  THAT could be a challenge.  I will try to fyx that ASAP!

Paperclay, Worthy Youth and Entropy

Yesterday I drove too many times to town to figure out clay to use for puppet head, hands and feet and ended up where I started at Grace's house learning how to use Paperclay.  I have always been afraid of the potential toxicity of FIMO and the like (that is why I have never used it with myself or students), and Grace assured me I was right to be fearful.

Now I have to clean the house before my buddy gets home since he has been gone a week and the only way I can describe my living habits would need to use the word entropy.

At some point, if I haven't burnt my oatmeal once again, I will eat and then tidy up some more and then~~~ up to the art room to play with Paperclay.

I have been avoiding coming back to Facebook ( I QUIT a few months ago) for all the obvious reasons of privacy and corporate take over.... but I keep getting notices ( because as far as I can tell there is no real way to QUIT FB ) of all the interesting, sweet, kooky and some important things that each of my friends post. I used to think that "friends" was such a trite word/process on facebook, until I realized that they ARE all my friends.

Like.. from Fearless Frank. Check this out. We are SAVED!!!!   Here's to brilliant youth all over the world!

http://www.upworthy.com/next-time-you-eat-a-banana-remember-this-girls-amazing-and-successful-experiment?g=2&c=upw1

Paperclay, Worthy Youth and Entropy

Yesterday I drove too many times to town to figure out clay to use for puppet head, hands and feet and ended up where I started at Grace's house learning how to use Paperclay.  I have always been afraid of the potential toxicity of FIMO and the like (that is why I have never used it with myself or students), and Grace assured me I was right to be fearful.

Now I have to clean the house before my buddy gets home since he has been gone a week and the only way I can describe my living habits would need to use the word entropy.

At some point, if I haven't burnt my oatmeal once again, I will eat and then tidy up some more and then~~~ up to the art room to play with Paperclay.

I have been avoiding coming back to Facebook ( I QUIT a few months ago) for all the obvious reasons of privacy and corporate take over.... but I keep getting notices ( because as far as I can tell there is no real way to QUIT FB ) of all the interesting, sweet, kooky and some important things that each of my friends post. I used to think that "friends" was such a trite word/process on facebook, until I realized that they ARE all my friends.

Like.. from Fearless Frank. Check this out. We are SAVED!!!!   Here's to brilliant youth all over the world!

http://www.upworthy.com/next-time-you-eat-a-banana-remember-this-girls-amazing-and-successful-experiment?g=2&c=upw1

The Beginning Urge

I'm a little late on the blog scene... just when it might be going away.  I leave for Europe in a month and my creativity is longing to ignite and express.. and yet really all I am doing is looking at web sites about what to wear in Europe.  Pack light and wear black... with a colorful scarf.  I've got black, that is for sure. And scarves.  So I am picking out anything that doesn't wrinkle.

I plan to make and take a small puppet or two that I haven't made yet but that are burning to come out of me. Mime can overcome so many language barriers and i look terrible in white-face, so my puppets will do the not-talking.  i like that lower case i, btw.

 It really is a birth... I need patience, time, acceptance, sweet compassion as the whatever in me incubates.  At least I hope something is incubating.  I think that is the challenge. Living with the fear that nothing may be incubating and I am just fooling myself.  It is why I don't refer to myself as an artist and feel like a charlatan when someone else does call me an artist.  The feeling that nothing is going to come.  Ever again.  It's all over.

Back to the puppets that I hope are incubating and can be created....by me.  I need to experiment with FIMO or some such product to make little heads, hands and feet. I WANT the FIMO... but not enough to drive to town before I HAVE to drive to town.  Which is tomorrow, thankfully.  FIMO!  Paper mache will just not do.

All I have to say is.. it really does feel unstoppable.  The urge to create.  Hence the temporary name of my blog.  Maybe Urge to Create is better.  Creative Urges.  Creativity Urges.  Me and My Creativity Urges.

As I was experimenting with fonts my arm hit something on the keyboard and everything up there just disappeared.  I got it back but I am going to eat something now and watch a movie... well half a movie...or.... a TV series on netflix. And SAVE this in whatever font it is in right this creative minute.

The Beginning Urge

I'm a little late on the blog scene... just when it might be going away.  I leave for Europe in a month and my creativity is longing to ignite and express.. and yet really all I am doing is looking at web sites about what to wear in Europe.  Pack light and wear black... with a colorful scarf.  I've got black, that is for sure. And scarves.  So I am picking out anything that doesn't wrinkle.

I plan to make and take a small puppet or two that I haven't made yet but that are burning to come out of me. Mime can overcome so many language barriers and i look terrible in white-face, so my puppets will do the not-talking.  i like that lower case i, btw.

 It really is a birth... I need patience, time, acceptance, sweet compassion as the whatever in me incubates.  At least I hope something is incubating.  I think that is the challenge. Living with the fear that nothing may be incubating and I am just fooling myself.  It is why I don't refer to myself as an artist and feel like a charlatan when someone else does call me an artist.  The feeling that nothing is going to come.  Ever again.  It's all over.

Back to the puppets that I hope are incubating and can be created....by me.  I need to experiment with FIMO or some such product to make little heads, hands and feet. I WANT the FIMO... but not enough to drive to town before I HAVE to drive to town.  Which is tomorrow, thankfully.  FIMO!  Paper mache will just not do.

All I have to say is.. it really does feel unstoppable.  The urge to create.  Hence the temporary name of my blog.  Maybe Urge to Create is better.  Creative Urges.  Creativity Urges.  Me and My Creativity Urges.

As I was experimenting with fonts my arm hit something on the keyboard and everything up there just disappeared.  I got it back but I am going to eat something now and watch a movie... well half a movie...or.... a TV series on netflix. And SAVE this in whatever font it is in right this creative minute.